At least I Try

been a year, 
been a year when i was diagnosed depression, quit my research and need to visi psychiatry regularly. already off now, with those antidepressant and antianxiaety, but life never be the same. 

it is hard to find comfort between people like i got before. i was now quite introvert who choose not to meet or face stranger if it is not needed. google photos and facebook worsen me nowadays because of nostalgic photos. a month before mother passed away 2 years ago. there is nothing can i do except get closer with Allah. 

anyway, i should got my final defenese by the end of january next month, or I wont make good. i dont wanna pay for another semster, and also i wanna go umrah on february. i hope i'll go with peace. i hope i can meet Allah in Allah's house with every gratitude feelings, begging forgiveness for every sin, healing my emotion, my brain, my mind. may Allah grant it.. 

i miss the joy i found around people, i miss empowering people, i miss thinking others than me, do more for others, having dreams, working hard, set goals, reach goals. 

i may have nothing right now. empty here inside. but at least i try.